Jess starts us off

I have no idea how to start this. Oh, the pressure.

Hi.

I had planned on introducing myself in this first post, but I’m pretty sure that I would mess it up. I’ve never been very good at introducing myself. I like to think of myself as a complex creature, but really, I have a hard time figuring out how much to tell about myself. Do you want to know basic stuff that no one cares very much about, like my favorite color or animal? Should I tell about my history online, or would that not be very much of an introduction? Instead, maybe I could tell deeply personal things about myself. But if I can’t even feel comfortable enough to tell IRL people that stuff, why would I put it online?

All of these thoughts have been plaguing me since the beginning of this project.

Already, NEA has changed my mindset. Although I haven’t been a member of the Nerdfighters Ning for a long time, I’ve seen the creation of many collaborations. I would think about joining one, envisioning thousands of people hanging on my every word. I never really bought the whole “We’re just doing this to become better friends” thing. I suspected that they all formed just to become the next fiveawesomegirls or vlogbrothers.

And then I joined this collab, and everything changed. I am legitimately excited to get to know the four of you. Many collabs say that they would keep doing what they’re doing, even if no one was watching or reading. I never bought that. But now I do. Even if we never get any followers on this blog (We already have a few, but whatever), I would still want us to continue. This really is about making friends, not becoming Internet famous.

I want to say that this is unique, but this may be what every other collab was feeling when they started, and I’ve just been let in on the secret. Do any of you feel the same way, or am I the strange one already?

If so, then this very much reminds me of Hayley’s first video on 5AG. Have any of you rewatched it recently? Because I have. If not, here it is:



Isn’t she so weird? If you watch any of the other first videos on that channel, everyone seems pretty normal. But then Hayley comes along, acting all strange and Hayley-like.

I’ve lost my point.

Anyway, I’m really looking forward to this year with the four of you. Let’s make it a good one.

-Jess